Silence/Solitude

Just sitting with God, all alone, with no distractions, is one of my most favorite things to do. Of
all the disciplines I think this is the one (also with silence) that I have been practicing the most over the past few months. Of course, it is hard – hard to keep my forever-wandering mind focused on Him and also to keep from falling asleep! But when I finally find that place, where I know He is with me, and I feel His presence…gah! It’s just overwhelming. It’s like He just parts
open my chest and burrows Himself within me and I feel completely and utterly vulnerable, unworthy to get to experience such intimacy with the God of the universe.

The other day was just like that. No words are necessary; the Spirit is free to do His work in my heart. He brought to my attention some aspects in my life that I am putting my trust in more so than the Lord. if I do not spend time alone and listening to God, I will not deal with the sins in my life. That’s just a problem I have. And though it’s painful and I hate being so exposed, if I am really trusting Him to take control of the time, the peace experienced afterwards is beyond comparison to any wonderful thing. So it’s really a huge trust experience, actually.

Lastly, I apologize for not blogging that often. I really dislike writing a lot, it’s a push for me to even journal my prayers and such, so it’s especially hard to motivate myself to somehow organize my thoughts and go write on a blog. I am going to try to be better about it for the remainder of our study, though. But, I just wanted to thank you all for sharing everything so far. Reading this blog really gives so much more insight and different points of view of each discipline. It’s really encouraging to know that we are all going through each discipline at the same time. I am praying for you all and thank you for sharing your hearts.